coming out of the blues xxx

march 21, 2012

wendyhouse

excerpt from History of Love...

there are two things i wanted to tell you...
i am made of glass and i love you ...

the other thing i have already said to the man i love..
i hope that he now have understood..the part that i love him
but the part that iam made glass,its him to see and to know xxx

i have been too overwhelmed by my own emotions,the past weeks and never realized that
itis because of love that i have felt the way i  did...

it is not anger or jealousy or unhappiness but its because of the love that i felt
and how i feared  of losing it.

i have learned a lot of things and is still learning a lot about life and love itself,
it is amazing that there is so much that we dont know about ourselves.
the surprise that one can bring on their own,how amazing how we are created.

spent time,crying,tiring myself,questioning why do i have to feel this way?
why do i have to have all of these emotions?

all these problems?these situations...?
but there is no clear answer and no choice but to just get on and move on...

spent time on my own today trying to figure out myself,
and i know it is me who is responsible to whatever i want to be...


but i am happy to know that he loves me.



i am not completely alone.

i want to feel ore positive even if there are a lot of things i would have
wanted differently..
a lot of challenges in everything but should i pick up myself or let myself drown with all of it?


who am i to question things?

a lot of problems that needs to be solved,i really dont have the time to dwell on things
that are beyond my hold...

i cant break,i cant break i am made of glass and it is impossible to put together
if i broke...

so i decide to get out of the blues,hope that all would work out
and keep myself occupied..

with things about my life,dont look back,that is not where i want to go..

i am inlove and my love is here...
my hand is always waiting for him to take hold ...

the reality is, i cant see him not being beside me all the time...
he is my life and if he is,i wont want him to be sad for me...

i am alone but thinking of our time together,
i smile and i know there is always to something to look forward to

the life that i wanted is always filled with happiness,
inspite of the thigns that come,
and all the blues i decided to outrun,
it cant live beside it has no place in my life..

and tomorrow is something i wait
after a very long night ...